Sunday, March 19, 2017



It's not really March is it?
Can we pretend its January?
Ok good!
Last year was a blur. An awesome blur.
We added a new member to our family.
Meet little Gwen.
She is perfect in every little way. 
I wish I could tell myself 3 years ago that everything was going to work out.
That having 3 kids is actually awesome. 
All those wise mothers were right. 
You see by the 3rd kid you aren't stressed out as much. 
You realize that the milestones are going to happen. 
That it actually does go fast. 
Since its January I wanted to do our year recap.
(Christmas Day 2016)

Thayne- started kinder and loves school most days. 
He practices jokes and loves making people happy.
He ran his first race last year. 
He is my buddy and likes to spend time together as a family.
When we ask him what his favorite part of a day is its always "when you did something with me"
This boy makes the world a better place. 

Joslyn- Shy at first but don't let her fool you.
She loves singing and dancing to herself.
Every time we try to listen in she will run away.
Being a middle child can be hard and she uses it to her advantage.
Her and I like to paint anything and everything together. 

Gwen- Still new but I think she might be a firecracker.
She loves to smile and giggle with us and wants to be wherever her
brother and sister is. Already she has a ton of personality.

Adam- is doing rotations and has a new schedule every month. 
He is going to be a great PA and finishes in JULY! 
He balances school and family amazingly.
He also has been able to rekindle his love of golfing.

Alyse- I am happily enjoying being CEO of our home. 
The kids and I have enjoyed doing things around Phoenix. 
We plan on staying in Arizona after school. 

Hope you all had a holly jolly Christmas!

Sunday, February 14, 2016

My valentines

I'm currently on hiatus from Facebook. But I wanted to do an update on our lives. Adam is currently on his second semester of PA school. So far it's been tougher than the last and he has had many tests but I have been so amazed at how he balances his life. Through it all he still finds time for us. He bought him and I dance lessons for Christmas. It was a dream come true. 

Thayne is getting ready for kindergarten later this year. We are doing a homeschool preschool and I work as a sub for a preschool and the kids get to come with me. He is such a sweet boy. He is so helpful and loves to cook with me. Here he is presenting his Valentine flower to me. He got the flower, water, glass all by himself. 

I recently discovered I love decorating cookies. I also love eating them. Soooo... I may or may not have already gained 3 lbs in a month from this new hobby. 

Miss Joslyn let me curl her hair today for the first time. She is getting ready to turn three and is already a bit sassy but mostly sweet. She loves to snuggle and has the biggest smile. 

We are loving Arizona and have felt so welcomed and loved. 

Happy Valentine's Day! I think I enjoy it more than the kids. It's been a special day filled with family time. Which has been my favorite way to do Valentine's Day since these two cuties have come. We did get to go on a long boarding date on Saturday which was long over due. 

Monday, November 9, 2015

Real life happened today

Do you ever have days where everything seems to be going your way? Sometimes I really do. On those days I can't ever remember why I think my life is so hard. It's one of those "I got this!" things. Today was not one of those days. Today I scrubbed and cleaned, ran errands, meal planned, caught up on laundry, and I felt good about doing my to do list.
 And then my daughter ate a penny.
 And then my sons rice toy exploded on my just cleaned room along with a "sand which party" that I apparently wasn't invited to that included bread crumbs mixed with rice. 
I burnt dinner. 
The perfect gift I thought I had found for my dad for Christmas had already been bought. 
It was just one of those type of days. But instead of being depressed about it. I'm choosing to remember a good day. A day when everything is going good. Within this crazy day my son told me "Mom I love you! I love you when you play football with me." It was the highlight of my day. And the sad part is I didn't spend enough time at the moment doing it. It was there in my bad day. Thank you for reminding me son what is important. 

Update on us: PA school is going strong and Adam has a big Christmas break and we are so grateful for it. 

I worked for 2 months and now am a sub at my work so I am not always on catch up mode. 

Life has been crazy but wonderful all at the same time. 

Monday, October 5, 2015

Back to school!

What an adventure we have been having! 
We have been go go go. I just tried to find our most recent pictures and realized I haven't been taking very many. Which is exactly what I wanted! It means I am enjoying the moment more. 

Today I am so excited because Adam only has 7 working days left and then we have a break before school starts!!! 
We went to the children's museum today in phoenix and it's right by his school which means that some days maybe we will carpool and drop dad off at school and go to the museum. It's a super fun thought and it might just happen since it is getting so hot. 

I took the kids to their first water park. Thayne couldn't believe how big the rides are. Our friends have season passes and get coupons for discounts and let us come for cheap. That's another season pass we are thinking about for next year. 

Joslyn wasn't quite tall enough to do any of the rides so I am glad we didn't get them this year she was sad she couldn't go on a slide. 

She loves to dress herself and wear moms sunglasses. She is turning into such a lady. We both wear skirts all the time because it is way cooler than shorts... No seriously way cooler. 

We love arizona and plan to stay awhile. Even in the heat. 

we survived June!

What a crazy fun month. Full of ups and downs. Tears and pure joy! 

I say survive because our routine is totally off (remember how much I need routine), Adam works nights and every other weekend (kills social life which I also need), and of course we have our first world trials. 

But we made it! I learned so much about myself his past month and have been dying to share what I have been learning but I have to wait. My mind is still healing. I have felt therapy will help me with my anxiety and depression. More on that as it progresses. Thayne celebrated his 4th birthday. We are so grateful to have him apart of the family. I had a very real depressive episode (floor day longest one so far) the day before. Translating that no birthday party things were done. However I have a great husband who understands parenting is a two way deal and he totally helped me get this party together. Totally spaced the forks but it turned out into a super fun way to eat the cake. And we did pizza instead of a complicated lunch I had planned. Smiles were shared all around. Thank goodness kids don't care about all that stuff. 

I've had a few people tell me that they can't even believe I get depressed, to be honest I have a hard time understanding that I get depressed. It sounds weird to explain my thoughts that I think in those very dark moments outloud. But they do happen and so do very good moments. The happiest of happy moments also happen and I am learning to hang onto those. 

These pictures capture just a few of those happiest of happy moments that happened last month. Here's to july and Adam about to start school next month! 

Thursday, June 4, 2015

"Life ain't always beautiful but its a beautiful life"

"Mama I'm the prince dancing with the princess Elsa"

Our castle has been readjusting the past couple of weeks.
Adam has been working nights and I've been in a dark place in my soul.
Adam has been holding everything together and I've just been present. 
It's not something I choose or wanted it just happened.
As Josie Thompson calls it.. I had a 'floor day' or two or three...

 floor day= not being being able to get up off the floor

It's not that my life isn't wonderful and its not that I don't know that. 
In fact part of my depressive moments are knowing my life is so good so why am I sad?
With my routine completely off I broke down. 

While my loving husband works, does dishes, gets food ready for everyone and my children ask "Is mama feeling better?" 
My sweet babies worry about me. 

I couldn't have asked for a better family or life. 
During one of my 'floor days' I managed to get on the computer and buy a gym membership.
Exercise literally has saved my life. 
It keeps me sane and keeps me going. 

But I wouldn't have even thought to buy one if I hadn't felt a feeling in my soul that it would solve 
many of my problems. 
My husband also wouldn't be the way he is without help.
Somehow even in my darkest moments my most horrible thoughts 
God is still there. 

He has reminded me time and time again to notice His tender mercies. 
The above picture is one of those tender mercies. 
When I am doing my part (reading my scriptures, praying, serving, etc.)
my kids have moments like this. They play together, they giggle, and they have fun.
You can call it random or whatever you will but I know its very real.
Of course they fight everyday, but somehow its lesser. The fighting, crying, screaming, hitting, throwing doesn't last as long. 

It may not seem like a miracle but to this tired mother this is 
a great miracle. 

Another tender mercy is that
my children who normally take 1/2 an hour to get ready to go anywhere 
are ready in minutes to head to the gym. 
And they LOVE being there. 
It's so much nicer than trying to workout at home.

Our routine is still evolving but what we have going on right now is wonderful. 
I'm glad I have these tender mercies even with my trials. 

Saturday, May 23, 2015

Chalk Paint Desk Makeover

Hurray for pinterest right?

I bought this thrifted desk for a decent price ($15? It was awhile ago) and have been waiting for the right time to paint it.

The time finally came! I wanted to do a fun bright blue but decided that maybe next year I won't be so crazy about the blue color. 
Then we found these super cool knobs from home depot with the exact blue I love! 
I settled on white it makes the room more open and is easier on my already crazy brain. 



Close up of the knobs

I love how it turned out. 
I  bought all the paint from Lowes. 
The guys there mixing paint knew what I was trying to do and mixed up my gray to the exact color I wanted. In fact I used the recipe right off the Lowes website for the chalk paint.

I bought a book at the goodwill to use as a mousepad so not to scratch the paint. 

I read many reviews of newbies saying chalk paint was really hard and they had problems of clumping but I had ZERO problems and enjoyed the project. I did hand sand a few spots after painting to make sure it was smooth. It was my first time chalk painting and now I want to paint everything. 

oh and if you notice I have a piece of hardware missing. Apparently older furniture uses sizes that are not found just anywhere. I can't find any hardware for under $15 same amount as I paid for the whole desk... so I am saving up for one since I spent all my money on paint and the other knobs. 

what do you think?