But Thayne took this one of me and I am learning to enjoy his perspective on life and of me. I don't particularly enjoy photos of myself but he enjoys taking them im still learning to love myself.
The other day Thayne made a comment to me that made me want to cry. He told me he didn't like the way his tummy poked out after eating. He wanted it flat. I told him that a full tummy meant he had food to eat and that he was growing.
He persisted that he didn't like a full tummy. I wondered where he got such an idea to even say that. Then it hit me. Like a ton of bricks I had made a comment a week earlier to Adam that I could lose some weight in the tummy area and that I could tone up and have a flat tummy.
Ugh such a hard thing to explain to a growing boy. After dinner last night I proudly showed Thayne my stomach and said "look I have a full tummy! It means I ate well and that I can grow!" Adam did the same. And soon we were all giggling and enjoying our full tummys. I need to watch what I say and do so carefully, both my children are sponges and thayne remembers everything.
Which got me thinking about this blog, and how this will be a way to be remembered. Or for people who don't quite understand all that goes in my life to just get a glimpse and maybe misunderstand what I mean. I don't want that. And so this will be my last public blog post. I have prayed, thought, talked to my best friend, and decided to start a different public blog where I can write more broadly. While keeping this one to those who are family and close friends. Where I can share things that are personal and not worry about if I will offend someone because I will have a circle of those who love me.
Thanks for your love and support shoot me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org if you would like to continue reading this blog. Also I would love to hear what your favorite things I write about are. I have a few ideas for my new blog but it's always good to hear what others like.